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Saturday, May 29, 2004 woohoo. home alone. left me n me pops at home fer de next 3 daes. now pops gone out sumwhere. n im home doin shit. wahlao. need ta study. joined Panna KO wif Jasdeep n Anand. shud be fun. committee elections on mondae. arkz, arkz...ooh. now that's a cute munjen. hoohoohaahaa. amin's got bad taste. harhar. ............................................................ Breathing - Yellowcard Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone I just can't give you anything for you to call your own And I can feel you breathing And it's keeping me awake Can you feel it beating? My heart's sinking like a weight Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now Things that I was sure of, they have filled me up with doubt And I can feel you breathing And it's keeping me awake Can you feel it beating? My heart's sinking like a weight I can feel you breathing It's keeping me awake Could you stop my heart? It's always beating. Sinking like a weight How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done? I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run I know that I hurt you, things will never be the same The only love I ever knew, I threw it all away And I can feel you breathing And it's keeping me awake Can you feel it beating? My heart's sinking like a weight I can feel you breathing It's keeping me awake Could you stop my heart? It's always beating. Sinking like a weight ............................................................ i hate project work. bitchass werk. har. yesterdae was Anderson Sec's Sports Day. didn't wanna go. Jawatt's an idiot. he'll only go home in a double-decker 81. he'll wait til it arrives. crazy bastard! GP articles. neva did any. imma basket. Joan's a nice girl. heh. she's funny. she'll only buy yellow runnin shoes. haha... i fink she eventually bought a blue pair. wadeva de shit. imma get that yellow Tigre Asics racer. it's too nice to pass. it's YELLOW! Thursday, May 27, 2004 watchin champs league final.carlos alberto zips past 3 players. n he's onlie 19. i just haf a feeling porto will win. they've got skill in abundance. monaco juz looks dependent on giuly and rothen to supply n morientes n prso to finish. heh. makkau. carlos alberto superb siak. i fink i wanna play winning eleven. haha. basket. i dunno wad is to become of me tmr. shitz. oh gosh. guess wart? carlos alberto juz scored. quite nice ar de goal. told ya'll he's good. its 3.24am. stomach's growling. ouh. i fink patrice evra is wearing de red/white total 90 3. coolness. imma go. 67min in de match. rather boring. ballz. [sialah, sounds like issa siak] so, toodles~ Tuesday, May 25, 2004 haha... STOOPID, NAIVE girl. take my advice kiddo, u're too young. heh.well, todae's physics practical wud haf been a DRAAGG if it was sum other dae. but it was todae, so it wasn't. quite okae ah todae. cecilia fell asleep. so her best friend [de stupid wan zhen], tried waking her up by spraying water from the sink. n de water didn't exactly hit cecilia in de face but wet her skirt. like totally drenched it ah! hahahah. kebodohan manusia. luckily, cecilia is a patient person. and yesterdae was shiok la. soccer training. wanted to join de committee. gimme de keys...gimme de keys.... ran 5km. clocked 21.51 mins. wooh! no biggie ah..jez personal satisfaction. and den aft training. me, jas, anand, irfan n shah were in de canteen. so we decided to be up to mischief. opened one of de advertising boards or sumthin n flipped over one of de ads. we decided to make one ourselves. so jasdeep wrote using my blue highlighter..."DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES? CUM JOIN ARSE. BLUE CROSS SOCIETY." and we drew a blue cross. tt WAS funny ah. heh. k nvm. tis morning it was dere. but it was gone by aftenoon. and i haf econs test tmr. wahlao. jasdeep sed things are gettin easier at tis stage n i sae it's de other way round. jackass of a singh. tt faggot never studies but scores high marks seh. ni nau hia. oops. ahh, nvm. tt girl can wait. kae. shyt. eh, sounds familiar. shyt. shyt. hahahaha. ahh. and finally. EVRYONE wudn't suggest tt i go fer de FAS [Football Association of Singapore, fer u pples hu dunno.]thingum. but it's a once in a lifetime thing, i think. 16 [SIXTEEN] days of ur holidaes. 3 daes alredy i hafta go fer some leadership camp. n den theres tis 16 day thing. i wanna tok abt it to de teachers n get de full details. it'll be good. i realli wanna go man. but den, mid years exams. argh. n yeah. finally. we were talkin bout love bite. after training yest, de 5 of us. excellent. saw sumone's BEEEG purple patch near HIS neck region. anand n jasdeep saw it first. they told us. n we suppose its prolly true. his gf prolly gave him tt. n we were like, they really bite? wtf for? haha. anand was like,"if my gf bite me, i slap her face!". HWAHWAHWAHWAHHWA. hhahaha. lepak seh. eugh. sumone plz enlighten tis innocent lil child here more bout lovebites. haha. coz i really juz dun geddit. harh. Empty Apartment by Yellowcard. nice song. Friday, May 21, 2004 fucking fuck the fuck fuck fuck. u cannot imagine my fury n anguish rite about now. my fucking comp just hadta hang, hadn't it!? in de midst of typing out my project werk stuff. guess i'll have to skip de friggin recess tmr. that wud haf been de case anw.imagine de shitload of trouble im in tmr. -no PW werk = angry group members -no Physicks file = who de hell cares wad happens?! -incompleted Physicks piece of crap paper = wadeva lah. Ms Isnarti cud juz kill me if she wants. -incomplete GP essay = a fuming Mrs Chong. wahlao, wahlao, wahlao. u noe wad? i just feel like goin to my void deck n playing soccer. but u all noe that it's not possible. i cud do my fuggin PW thing again but i can't think if i'm friggin pissed off. [ouh and hi rohana. sorry i was busy wif werk.] anw, father comin home soon. real soon. fuck lar. and werk is not all tt's bothering me. *shakes head* so many things running thru and absolutely nuthin to talk about. absolutely nuthin. probably, when i regain composure. n i feel like punching de apeks downstairs at the coffeeshop rite now coz they're talkin too loudly. utter pathetic loser, i am. Thursday, May 20, 2004 
Tuesday, May 18, 2004 http://alfian.diaryland.com/non.htmlfunny shit. wooh. yesterdae was an adventure. haha. well, went ta skool. i usually finish at 5.35pm. but yest no PE coz of NAPFA. n i thot physics tutorial was crap. MOST IMPORTANTLY, MJC was playin gay boys SAJC in de semis. i cud never miss that. so i skipped physics. thanx to my beautiful classmates. wargh. luv dem all. hahaha. de skool sent 9 buses. n de last one left like minutes before i finished my maths tutorial. so there we were, 8 pple who juz finished lessons n thot there was gonna be a bus to get us to CCAB. 4 guys n 4 girls. Saeed went to ask de VP, Mrs Crossley, abt the buses. n found out tt there was no more buses. so she offered to send him [only him] to de place. so he went outside n told us that his father was sending him. n he took Syaz wif him. leavin 4 girls n 2 guys includin me. den he pulled me in. n he pulled de other guy in. so the car was full now. n de girls hadta leave n get there by taxi, thinkin tt Saeed's father was sendin us. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahha!!! they were like, "Saeed! U not gentleman sia!". n saeed said [eh,rhymes!],"i am! i got two balls! u haf? u haf?". haha...tt guy is sick. so they left n Saeed went into VP's office as if it was his second home. he'd been there 7 times in 1st 3mths. coolness. n he told us tt she's his gf. hahahaha. i mite juz take over as she noes me coz of latecoming already. woot! n she brought along a teacher. so de 4 of us squeezed in at de back. power la! save money sia. n i fink she didnt see me or she'd ask qns i guess. phew! my VP drove me to watch a soccer match during my Physics tutorial!!! who can boast that sia! haha. the match was superb! de team was at its best. before de match, Rauf told me,"Todae, i'm feeling good. U're gonna see de Round 1 Rauf!" and he showed us alrite! he lobang-ed one SAJC faggot. n scored de first goal. super team lah this. Adil thruball...Rauf finishes. den Tiong was put through twice n he spurned BOTH chances!!!!! but he learnt quickly n rounded de keeper before giving us a 2 goal lead. me and andrew were dancing his Mat dance, saying WE ARE IN THE FINALS!! den in 2nd half, our dearest coach made defensive substitutions. i hate to blame him but i find that it's his fault. WHY CHANGE A WINNING TEAM?! geezers. n put in Hilmi wif few minmutes left? Bul was injured! Y didn't he take Bul out!? GAH. U PISSIN ME OFF DUDE. i just hope coach realises his mistakes, dammit. We totally deserved to be in de finals man. De guys cried. n Kurniawan cried hardest. i'd gladly haf cried for him coz i noe, HE deserves to be playing in de finals. in fact, de team deserves it. argh. so we went to eat at Newton. Bhai, Z, Ram, Salwa, Sze Chi, Ifah n me. damn. i ate exactly wad i wud haf eaten EVERY FRIDAE at Anderson sec. after fridae prayers, sugar cane drink n bee hoon goreng. power la. n its MUCH cheaper than at Newton. haha. i miss AMK central. woah. tis is long. dammit. got werk to do lah dammit. oh. n tis is one of the greatest songs lah. Build Me Up Buttercup - Busted feat. McFly Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart "I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again But you're late, I wait around and then (bah dah dah) I run to the door, I can't take any more It's not you, you let me down again (Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find (Hey, hey, hey!) A little time, and then I'll make you mine (Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore If you'd just let me know (bah dah dah) Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more Why do I need you so (Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find (Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and then I'll make you mine (Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home I'll be beside the phone waiting for you Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin' You know that I have from the start So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart ............................................................ Sunday, May 16, 2004 wah. todae i woke up to a vunderfool dream. so i was in a good mood. heh.*and everybody's on de table...table, table...* Saturday, May 15, 2004 ouh. i've re-lived basketball court soccer daes of anderson again. tho in mjc it's not as fun i guess. i dunno.thaqif n hilmie made 3 songs. "My Friend Jeevan", "Aliff The Man" and "Feezy the Paki". haha...bastard songs in tribute to our friends. Jeevan's was de best lah. funny ta shits. some parts of de song... "Jeevan...is a fat blackass. he wears a 'sumthin'..and a big black specs. Oh jeevan..ur momma's callin, i dunno, where u are. u got..some big fat bum. Oh cecilia! Jeevan...tt's his name. Jeevan, tt's ur name. Egypt..his 'hwahahah'. I dunno wad...okae it's time to go. let's'go, let's go, let's go jeevan! u're an egypt freak wif a black ass. [macho egyptian..macho egyptian..] let's go jeevan..u're born black. big fat bum and a black black...ahh ur black-brown hair is gonna make me smile, u're gonna be a red hot chilli pepper on the crime! u go jeevan...[sniggers]." tt's only a preview. u want de song can ask me. hwahwahaw. tops on my playlist. and i wanna watch Troy. and Van Helsing. Sports Day @ MJC pics UPDATED. *...she's a five foot ten in catsuit and bambi eyes...evrybody was starin...wudn't believe that this girl was mine..* okae. lets be random. im not good at memory werk, aitz? heh. okae. yesterdae was sports dae. when de malay guys came back from fridae prayers, it was ard 1415pm ah. den de 100m finals fer guys were startin. amin was supposed to compete but we juz came back...so i accompanied him to hide and watch de race before goin to de spectators gallery. haha...he said it was lucky he didnt run or else malu seh kalah. haha..anw, at sembahyang jumaat jer me and amin were like scared n thot of withdrawin from our events. [100m fer amin, 400m fer me.] den i realised tt de next race race was 400m girls n den it was 400m boys. woot. i heard my name called out twice. and so i went to de toilet to shit. tt was after watchin de race. and again, i was so damn thankful i didnt run. or i'd tire myself fer nothing before de 4x400m relay. it was expected, de winners were de same track and field faggots. damiiit. haha. and so it was...i finished my business and joined de pple eatin shah's b'dae cake at de canteen. aft dat, went up to pass my camera to farhan coz he wanted to use it. [and while i'm runnin, prolly he cud help me take pictures oso. heh] so i went down to gulp a cuppa milo b4 joinin raden[who ran 400m],samuel [who has sprained his hands, and they now look uneven. he went showin evryone. usual sam] and kurniawan [who ran 800m and got 2nd. dammit he's good. he'll perform his heroics later on tho]. raden first runner, sam 2nd, me 3rd, and kurn last. sam and me were crappin non-stop...like who was faster than the other la..he wear his Aasics racer can run faster than me wif spikes la...[he eventually wore some ugly spikes n i wore his $107 racer coz kurn told me to change from my stoppid runnin shoes which were heavy. how i noe sia, i juz run. hahaha. andy oso gave me a gulp of glucose. i didnt know any of tt either. hwahwahwa.] and soon, it was de girls 4x400m. phobos 1st, triton 2nd. fergot de 3rd. syafiqah and hashimah [both triton] were dang good la. and obviously nurul was fast too. it was like 2 diff races. phobos and triton were so far ahead of the others. haha...close finish...tt yan qi phobos girl finishin ahead of nurul. den it was our run. joan n nurul wished me luck. they're like copies of each other but of different races. both can run long-distance well, both look *ahem* good...heh. nurul is underweight. [and prolly joan is too] she said she's like 40++ kg. she was soo happy tt she ate lotsa ice-cream n chocs tt she gained 2 kg. can be blown by wind seh. haha. so we ran. triton bastard changed their first runner at de last minute to de guy who got 1st fer individual 400m. den andrew was their last runner. and denzil their 2nd runner. all 3 are friggin good! surely all 8+ mins fer 2.4km ah. so raden ran...and de places were all de same as we were 3rd lane n when baton was passed to sam, we were still 3rd. triton was 2nd lane n tt first runner overtook de 1st lane guy...puttin triton 1st n atlas[us] 3rd. phobos was 1st lane so they were 2nd. dun bother abt de other 2 houses. haha. phobos consisted of all last minute runners. ALL. heh. so, sam chased the triton, phobos n miranda guys. at de last 200, he overtook miranda n phobos. denzil[triton] had built up a large lead. blardee long legs. so he came...i took de baton n juz ran. didnt look back. i thot i was alone on de track. hahaha. [until i saw de pic farhan/shazleen took, the miranda guy was close behind me at de last 100m.] i juz chased the triton 3rd runner [muhammad or sumthin ah] until we were back on par when we passed batons. at tt point, atlas was first,triton 2nd and miranda 3rd. n de super runners got goin. kurn had a 3m lead in front of andrew and saeed was close behind. but it ended triton 1st, atlas 2nd and miranda 3rd. kurn had led fer 399m..but de last metre wasn't tt good. our timing was 0.00.03 seconds apart. wahlao. wahlao. wahlao. miranda was sumwhere close behind ah. btw, i wasn't fast lah...de triton 3rd runner made me look good. haha. wooh. anoder MJC medal. [that's 1+1=2!! i can count!] but wad pisses me off is not being in this year's SUPER MERIDIAN SOOCER TEAM. it's de 1st real MJC soccer team anw [as in J1's n J2's]. haha. ahh. let's hope we at least emulate this year's team, next year. n i'm contemplating skipping sch on mondae to watch de semis against SAJC. i'll miss math and phy tutorial and PE. gah. depends if pple wanna skip sch wid me. heh. sze chi's thinkin of skippin. prolly azry will too. AHA! i know! use halim's passport extension excuse!! get early leave form. see if parents agree not ah. heh. or i'll do it on my own. *setan setan* oh. NAPFA's on mondae n wednesdae. hope i get my silver. den can plae sports n games while other train fer de re-test!!! haha. basket nye orang. ouh. maths test todae was not bad. not very bad ah. almost confirm infinity improvement coz i got 0 fer last test. which was 1st 3 mths ah! so slack ah. ouh. jasdeep n me played ps2 fer a few hours straight. tt crazy fuck was pissed tt he cudnt beat me twice in a row. everytime he beats me, i'll trash him back. like i used chelsea n he used liverpool. he beat me 2-0 initially. den we rematch. before the rematch, i asked him to predict de score. he said 3-0 to him and i said i'll win 5-0. n i beat him 7-1. he was quiet thruout tt match. but eventuall de match was forfeited n i won 3-0 coz he got 5 red cards. ON PURPOSE. FUGHEAD. he didn't want to lose by tt much. if he win he'll make noise. bitchass nigga. haha. den my Real Madrid lost 3-1 to his Liverpool. n i beat him 7-4 in de rematch. we played MANY last matches. coz he kept losing de last match n wanted to rematch. tt's y he stayed fer long. eventually, de REAL last match, i used argentina to beat his france. haha. he went home, a dejected man. HWAHWAHWAHWAHWA. i think im damn good at Winning Eleven. =D "cold hard bitch, she was shakin her hips and that was all i need." - Jet Monday, May 10, 2004 last sundae. ouh, yesterdae. mornin i skipped PW meetin to plae soccer wif de old gang. surely was worth it. we beat boon's friend's team. [who were supposedly good n unbeaten, geezers!] 3-1. daniel scored 2. shah missed tons of chances as usual. but he scored 1 too. we played at gan eng seng sec sch field. not bad ah... tho it was at tiong bahru. aft dat, we makan at tiong bahru LJS. den went home n slept. woke up, did hmwrk til ard 12. wooh. took many pics wif de fellas at tiong bahru. and yet again, boon n farrell got their hands dirty as they teamed up to pull down pple's shorts n take pics of butt cheeks. tis time, shah n jasdeep were victims. haha...can't blame them. been a LOOONG time since we were all childish. started de nonsense as we ate and played wif de banana chips i brought. heh. threw each others slippers ard...de usual. such funness mite never be found elsewhere. we MUST keep in touch,dudes.ouh homewerk. got econs 13m essay to complete by tmr. n its 11.43 now. argh, i've done enuff fer todae by my standards. time ta sleep. or mebe update pics of saturdae. coolness. imma do jus that. =D =) #PICTURES UPDATED# Tuesday, May 04, 2004 i totally agree wif radhiyah. maths lecture of de old...1st 3 mths are definitely betta than de current. maths lecture sucks. todae was de first dae i didnt pay attention to her. i kinda pity de lecturer ahh... but some people are juz not born to lecture. hahah. like ms ang. she can teach in class damn well but sucked at lecturing.bah. feel sad fer amin. n i came to a conclusion that jasdeep is de main culprit. hahahahaha. nonsense. lek ah amin, u're alredy faring betta than me...u shud be glad. todae, sat wif navin n gurpreet n their fren n talked. n talked. n talked. our usual nonsense. we talk about nothing else except soccer, girls and *de usual racism topics*. hahaha..dunno how long we sat in de canteen laughing n talking...my practical wasn't completed eventually. hahaha. "heh. it dun matter really. it juz dun matter. its understood. proving time will arrive soon enuff. jc life will sweep pass. u'll be there. and also, juz dun bother. u noe urself betta than those fools do. it wun arrive anytime soon. altho i WISH it will. no wait. DO I ??" *verily, with every difficulty, there is relief* ouh yeah. btw pple, i think JC life makes pple "fall in love" [if that's wad u call it] faster. or much more easily. it's too obvious n evident. heh. and no, im not afflicted. im immune i guess. haha. I MISS BASKETBALL-COURT/STREET SOCCER. Saturday, May 01, 2004 wargh. todae was like INTERACTION DAY fer me. let's see...i met up wif tons n tons of old frens i've not seen fer quite some time. de first one being Syed Ali from pri sch. i feel like naming all. nemmind ah. lazy. made a couple of new frens...thru old frens. hell, it was worth goin to de VJ carn. only dat it wasn't worth buyin de coupons. hahaha. well, got to noe new friends better too. i'd say it was a good day. tho i'll haf tons of werk to do ah tmr.ouh. my left eyebrow got cut yesterdae during training. dang it. i really thot it was a deep cut. rather big too. and i thot it needed stitching. but i decided to apply ointment n sleep it away first n decide de next mornin whether or not to pursue medical attention. and it turned out rather alrite as de wound closed. and de wound ain't tt visible unless u're near or u got a sharp eyesight. so it wun be a prob. i hope. heh. and wad a dumb thing to do and not use my camera to take pics todae. i brought it but never whipped it out. now ain't tt dumb??? hah. n VJC trains hard. they had a match against a former VJ team juznow i fink. cool. MJ shud do sumthin liddat. play more matches i mean. ahh. todae was still a memorable dae. i dunno y. juz mebe coz i've hadn't talked n walked n said so many "hi"s in a couple of hours. btw , dun bother askin me who i like coz i dun think im interested in any currently. heh. and to my guy friends, [rauzan, nuri, irfan],u fellas got good taste. really. haha. *suck on a lollipop* |
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